just another day…
Wednesday, January 21st, 200922 january…life is so unpredictable…someone who used to hurt
me deeply has become one of my good frens…keke… and i dont even know whether have i changed from almost cracko to cracko due to my never ending depression of being all alone all these while..kaka… sorry and thanx so much to all who have endlessly listen to me mourning again and again with all the stupid rules and conditions, all the what ‘ifs’ blah blah blah… i guess im pain in the ass to certain ppl… have also been considering whether to return to penang after i grad thou parents are making all the plans for me to return… yeah, its all still up to me, but i can imagine the disappointment in their faces if i dont return…so..comes the statement.. if i managed to get someone there, then i may stay back.. so maybe i shouldnt even think of getting someone there to save the unnecessary heartbreak coz after all , my family remains my top priority…
neway, its still a long way.. dont wana burden my already over crowded brain.. just can pray hard to be guided through in everything i do… a few more days to CNY… really preparing like mad since the day i come back.. havent really have a proper rest.. but today i just dropped dead on my bed for almost 4 hours..really cant open my eyes.. tired to the max and the craze will continue til CNY itself.. am lucky to manage to have the family reunion dinner..might not be able to meet all my relatives. it is a good thing in a way so that they wont bug me with the ’single status’ which irritates me actually… even i myself feel allergic to the word dee.. but the sad part was i’ll be missing the BBQ dinner for the 2nd time..haih.. that’s when i can really catch up with my cousins.. no choice ler..so.. happy chinese new year to all… those who are already married..hmm hmm.. remember my ang pow ya..keke…
