well, just had my first test for the second sem today…how was it?? urm, not sure… it was so stressful for having so many lectures cramp in 5 weeks… okies..this is not something new but then, its just too much..yeah, got some tips, 80% come out lah.. hehe.. but wasnt quite confident of the answers i wrote also… coz memorize till my brain wana burst dee… it was a terrible week… not enough sleep, no appetite and everything just didnt turn out well… my eyes are swollen to the max as if someone boxed right on my eyes… went our for dinner just now.. im really so desperately need penang’s food..who is ever willing to send over to me..plzzzzzzz…neway, got to know something that really hurt me kinda deeply… it really changed my mood for the weekend.. i know its no point for me to shed my tears, but with so many things happening these few days, my heart feel as if its been smashed again… no thanx to the someone who promise to share my sorrow and pain with me… i aint gonna trust ur words anymore… yeah, can just buzz off from my life as long as u wish.. i aint gona send any msg or reply… u treated me like that and dont EVER expect im gonna care anything about ur part… i’ve had enough… i dont think i will change my mind after this..
and to people who are slowly despising me… THANX so much for showing me ur true colours… u all shown me the characters that i have been lieing or maybe trying to push far away i guess… i will NEVER forgive myself for giving my chance to open up…but end up, its just the nightmares that are becoming reality at the moment…up to u ppl lah… i dun wan care anymore..just dun come to me when u need me… if possible just buzz off from my life as far as u cud…
ooo..the 2006 summary i typed the other day on 31st dec…
i could remember vividly,
not long ago, i was only typing ‘bubye 2005′..
it seems time really flies…
and now its already bubye 2006…
another 365 days just passed by..
what have i done…
what are the things that i managed to do..
2006… it was full of mixed feelings…
early part of the year i was still in year 1…
it was a tough time… and thank GOD i managed to make it to year 2…
had a two months break in which i spent with my dearest parents..
hardly went out except to meet a few frens…
nevertheless had a great time when i went up to genting with my parents and bro and gf met us there…it was a new experience for me as well.. why…???
coz i can get into the casino dee… kakaka… so embarassing when the ‘police’ still wana checked my i/c…yeah… i still look young… bro keeps saying i ’separuh masak’… hahahaha
neway, the cycle goes on with harder and harder things to learn, understand and whether u like it or not, U HAVE TO MEMORIZE…
there’s no such thing that u Dont need to know this and that…
year 1 ended with our health promotion in which my group did in penampang..
it was a great 2 weeks, having to strengthen our ties…
and staying in the kampung house with no proper toilet and having to bathe in just shed-like bathroom was really something new for a city gal like me…we had a memorable time going for the house to house visit.. meeting the kampung people and dang… sia sui was when our kadazan level was too poor… kekeke…
in july… thats was when year 2 starts… its like a brand new beginning…
from first floor, i was shifted to the highest floor in the hostel..
and..i got the special room… bilik TV of blok B, kg C…im honoured… 
nono… there’s no tv but a damn big hole above my ceiling..
complain for 1 sem but no actions taken lah…
each time raining also worried..and can hear the rain drops dripping down from the bocor punya roof… sad sad sad…when the weather is freaking hot, i could feel like im in a desert… but when its cold, its freaking cold till i freezed….
living in the highest floor has its pros and cons…
pros… i get to scope down at ppl staying below me and..hehe.. i got to see many things too… and its quiet most of the time…
cons… i had a hard time bringing up my things which is a full load of a hilux when i first checked in…thanx to those that helped me…how lucky i am when the washing room is just beside my room and the toilet is opposite…but how come it annoys me??? yeah… ppl can washed their clothes as early as 2am to 5am in the morning, talked, screamed and shouted like no one business when they are washing their clothes (hei…i need to sleep and study also lah… and being a light sleeper doesnt help me at all)..there are also ppl who never flushed the toilets after doing their small business..and dang.. left what ever smell u wana imagine lah…ooo..i forget to mentioned the dustbin is also near my room and ppl can be so disgusting to simply throw their rubbish, food and what ever fruits’ skin as they wish and left the stenching smell..of coz, im the victim again as my pathetic room is secluded to one end…. have to endure this kinda situation for yet another sem… sigh sigh sigh..
coming to class..hmm… its a sad thing when we were separated to new groups… yea, it also time to get to know others better… somehow, things arent the same anymore like last time…there seems to be a barrier… i dont know if its just me having this feeling..second year..its PATHOLOGY… u get to know all the diseases from congenital, infection, tumours.. u named it … each class with have… dz, definition, etiology, pathogenesis, pathophysiology, complication, clinical features, with diagnosis, differential diagnosis and treatment once a while… no complains… its pre-clinical year…what do u expect…??? it would be creepy to be in the hosp nex year if u dont know anything…did i say nex year… i meant 3rd year which start in june…that also if everything goes smoothly for the 2nd sem..
okies… any happy things for the year… yeah… of coz.. how i could ever forget.. the birth of baby joel… hehehe… bring lots of joy to me… sorry to scare a few ppl who tot i really had a REAL baby and was asking who is the father of my baby…. hahaha…its none other than dearest my baby sunrise orange proton iswara that my parents bought for my birthday present… im just so thankful to have such great parents…i have 50% decorated my dearest baby.. with my pooh items… hehe… and there’s also ‘piipii’, a bulldog in baby joel..there’s still more to come..wait till i go back..yeah, come to think of it, its more than half a year since i last went back… ouchie… i miss home so much… not forgetting the food… hmm..any other thing i wana share… :)).. not at the moment..
sad things… hmm… many ler… but dont feel like talking much about it…. it somehow made me stronger to face the challenges ahead… yea, i learnt not to trust anyone anymore…wait..i tot i dee dont trust ppl much..well, many ppl just make me cant even believe their words…annoying ppl who just pissed me off so badly, pls stay far away from me coz im not likely to forget those pissing things u ppl did….. ppl who tend to put blames on me, try again and u ppl will know the consequences… dont ever dare me… ok ok… dont wana spoil my 2006 summary…
new year resolution…
1. STUDY HARD AND SMART lah… no choice eh… already make that choice since last last time…its a continuation every day for the rest of my life eh… hehehe
2. shed the xtra load.. yeah, feel i’ve gained weight… but funny thing is my pants are loose…how come???
3. take care of baby joel to the max… i dont eat, baby joel also have to eat lah…
4. try my best to stay in touch with my dearest bro.. havent meet him for more than 7 months.. miss u much…
5.take more effort in talking and keeping in touch with my VIPs… my heart doesnt feel good each time i dun hear from them.. mizz u ppl lots…
6.will try to find or do something to ease my pain of being far far away from my piece of heart…it drains me… but i dun wan it to be my burden…
7.will try my best to forgive and forget…wait..its been years since i tried doing this but still to no avail..will keep on trying…
8.what else… hmm…maybe to spent my money wisely…already budgeting 400/month so, any presents from anyone is much appreciated… hehehehe…
cant think of any more and the moment… things will just happen as time passes by… so… bubye 2006 and hope 2007 will bring more joy and happiness to me, my family, my dearest, my VIPs, my buddies, my frens…and also to everyone.. May GOD bless u all for the new year ahead…
