Enduring Journey..

things are getting complicated
and i really dont know why…
it seems that time flies pretty fast as well
and yesterday was the first test of 2nd year..
it was tricky and ‘hantaming’ session again…
i just hope i will get through this test…
plus the news i received that day
wasnt anything nice…but left me in deep malachony
wish i could do more instead of just words…

neway, many things are going on…
many new ‘characters’ are emerging…
with some people being blamed
with some people being backstabbed
with some people being betrayed
with some people being selfish
with some people being arrogant..
the worse would be..
there are also a few individuals
who need a HUGE mirror to reflect on themselves
who need a detergent to kill those ‘pathogens’ in their hearts
who need clorox to gurgle their damn BAD MOUTH…
who need sand paper to scrap off their ‘dirts’…
if u people ever need those help,
i will be more than willing to offer the services…

why do u have to talk bad about people?
why do u think what u did was ALWAYS right?
why do u need to blame others when ur the one who is wrong?
dont u know how to write the ’shame’ word?
dont u know that u annoyed many people?
dont u know that ppl are ’scared’ of ur faking behaviour?
dont u know that ppl are trying to hide from u?
dont u know that u are a burden to many ppl?

u are lucky that u HAVENT step on my tail YET..
but trust me…
DONT U EVER do so..
coz i swear i will slap u rite in front of everyone
im not as good hearted as anyone who can tolerate u…
i will NEVER let u use me like u have been using others
i will NEVER tolerate any single bit of u
i will burst out every single thing that u did
i will narrate every stories that u said
i will mention every rumours that u spread…
i will NEVER allow ur ’sickness’ to affect me…
just watch out ur steps..coz im watching u…

and to my very important person,
i was extremely disappointed by ur actions and words…
it broke my weak little heart…
its nothing to u but it was sumthing to me…
i cant forget what ever that happened..
and dun u dare ask me to forget about it..
coz no matter what u did
it will NEVER heal the pain that u caused…
from ur ignorance and replies..
i guess i should realize that
words are always easier said that done..
i dont ask for more..
coz i have made a decision…
and i wont turn back this time…
its time… just let silence haunts me..

it’s been a long time since i posted any news since i came back to sabah…life has been so hectic that i dont even know when will i have the time to have a proper sleep… i still havent pay back for those sleepless nites during health promotion… the 2 weeks with my group members was really an experience that none of us will forget…too bad that we have to be divided into new groups this year and im still in the same group with guang, while the rest are divided to other groups… sigh… the workload is getting heavier and im really so worried coping… even today’s session in epidemiology investigations is giving me a big headache… i cant really get the point..but i think i might have to go thru more of that…nex week will start on new module dee and will have test… sigh..y am i getting more stress and stress….then, problems here and there… cant stand certain ppl who only knows how to condemn about me but never realise or admit their mistakes… i swear one day i will sepak this ppl kaokao… still keeping my patients…just dont dare me to show my another character or u guys gonna regret… this saturday will be the physio quiz..i dont know why im in thou i did so many mistakes in the preliminary rounds…the kengchow ppl most not in.. but ppl pua tang sai like me pulak can be in..ish..sia sui nia..considering i didnt study anything during hols..not like the kiasu king who purposely came back earlier and cover most of it dee..aiya..if u wana join so much, let u lah.. wont fight with u eh..the most embarassing part will be all the juniors will be coming as well…lagi sia sui…dont know where to hide my face ler…sigh..so many things wana say..but i think my blogging session will stop as time goes by unlesss i really have something i wana vent or share… till then… all da best to everyone that i know…