Enduring Journey..

had my final test for the year just now…it was no joke. finals in about week but darn, still cant do the questions… i really darent imagine how im gona sit for my finals… im really having some really bad feelings that i will fail badly and the explaination and indirectly ‘advices’ given by the lecturers are really kinda discouraging… they are trying to upgrade the quality but how can they compare us with the seniors when the level of questions have changed so much? they bombared us when we fail to perform but they dun really give us a guideline to what we are supposed to look into and having presentations and stuff each time before test is really a burden i would say. i tried voicing out to the profs but they just brush off like that…

the same goes for yesterday’s drama presentation…we only received the instruction on monday afternoon and on thurs afternoon we already had to present. i dont mean to condemn them but at least dun demand so much from the students who had sacrficed so much for the preparation thou it wasnt what they have expected. my group was quite lucky that the comments werent too discouraging. i was glad that i didnt embarassed myself as the doctor. i was so scared the psychiatrist will tembak me or sumthing as i was supposed to counsell a TB patient who doesnt wana comply. it was a relieve that he said i did a good job but can still improve ler… hahaha… the highlight of our drama was Aldrin who acted as the nurse… thanx to this willingness  that i managed to have a ‘lady nurse’..hahaha…everyone laughed like anything and he even have two big breast…kakakakaka…..though there were some humour in the drama, we did presented some msgs in it… by now, everyone in class should know the antibiotics for treating TB…hehehe… we have ’superwomen’ and a ’superman’ as the antibiotics which ‘fought’ with the mycobacterium… hahaha… just hope to watch the recorded drama ASAP… hehe…

okies… really have to push hard for finals dee.. really gona piah till i die for it.. cant afford to waste any single point.. the lecturers are really gona make us suffer… good luck to me..

i never felt so hurt till last nite when i was labelled as PRETENDER… i NEVER pretend and i didnt know how to pretend in the beginning… i sacrificed so much for them, cared for them more than myself, worried when they feel so down, did whatever they asked me to do and just trying to be true! what did i do wrong to be treated like that??? its just so UNFAIR!!! it makes me hate him now… i wont give face anymore… i will change back to my REAL self and sorry for those who dont know the real me… i will be very harsh and direct with my words and i wont care what feelings is all iabout..no point caring… ppl, please dun step on my tail… i dun wana hurt anyone.. will study hard for my test and exam then… i WONT let u ppl ruin my life….